{"id":2982,"date":"2026-07-13T14:24:09","date_gmt":"2026-07-13T18:24:09","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/sites.smith.edu\/bdpcblackoutproject\/?p=2982"},"modified":"2026-07-13T14:27:21","modified_gmt":"2026-07-13T18:27:21","slug":"i-meant-to-please","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/sites.smith.edu\/bdpcblackoutproject\/i-meant-to-please\/","title":{"rendered":"I meant \/ to please"},"content":{"rendered":"\n<figure class=\"wp-block-image size-full is-resized\"><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" width=\"1658\" height=\"2560\" src=\"https:\/\/sites.smith.edu\/bdpcblackoutproject\/wp-content\/uploads\/sites\/1055\/2026\/07\/I-meant-to-please-1-scaled.jpg\" alt=\"I meant\nto please,\n\nhis eyes\nfeelings were\nignorance;\nand\nI did not speak. that he was\nmy secret\nI loved him\n\nI\n\n\ncried\nas\nhe\ncontinued\nI was myself\nbut that wears out\n\nHe\nhad\n\na\nlife and,\nI could no longer\n\n\nlive\nmine\" class=\"wp-image-2983\" style=\"width:687px;height:auto\" srcset=\"https:\/\/sites.smith.edu\/bdpcblackoutproject\/wp-content\/uploads\/sites\/1055\/2026\/07\/I-meant-to-please-1-scaled.jpg 1658w, https:\/\/sites.smith.edu\/bdpcblackoutproject\/wp-content\/uploads\/sites\/1055\/2026\/07\/I-meant-to-please-1-194x300.jpg 194w, https:\/\/sites.smith.edu\/bdpcblackoutproject\/wp-content\/uploads\/sites\/1055\/2026\/07\/I-meant-to-please-1-663x1024.jpg 663w, https:\/\/sites.smith.edu\/bdpcblackoutproject\/wp-content\/uploads\/sites\/1055\/2026\/07\/I-meant-to-please-1-768x1186.jpg 768w, https:\/\/sites.smith.edu\/bdpcblackoutproject\/wp-content\/uploads\/sites\/1055\/2026\/07\/I-meant-to-please-1-995x1536.jpg 995w, https:\/\/sites.smith.edu\/bdpcblackoutproject\/wp-content\/uploads\/sites\/1055\/2026\/07\/I-meant-to-please-1-1326x2048.jpg 1326w, https:\/\/sites.smith.edu\/bdpcblackoutproject\/wp-content\/uploads\/sites\/1055\/2026\/07\/I-meant-to-please-1-940x1452.jpg 940w, https:\/\/sites.smith.edu\/bdpcblackoutproject\/wp-content\/uploads\/sites\/1055\/2026\/07\/I-meant-to-please-1-400x618.jpg 400w\" sizes=\"auto, (max-width: 1658px) 100vw, 1658px\" \/><\/figure>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\"><strong><em>By Kat Echols<\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">I meant<br>to please,<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">his eyes<br>feelings were<br>ignorance;<br>and<br>I did not speak. that he was<br>my secret<br>I loved him<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">I<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">cried<br>as<br>he<br>continued<br>I was myself<br>but that wears out<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">He<br>had<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">a<br>life and,<br>I could no longer<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">live<br>mine<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\"><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>By Kat Echols I meantto please, his eyesfeelings wereignorance;andI did not speak. that he wasmy secretI loved him I criedashecontinuedI was myselfbut that wears out Hehad alife and,I could no longer livemine<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":8216,"featured_media":2981,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[21],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-2982","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-monstermash"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/sites.smith.edu\/bdpcblackoutproject\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2982","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/sites.smith.edu\/bdpcblackoutproject\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/sites.smith.edu\/bdpcblackoutproject\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/sites.smith.edu\/bdpcblackoutproject\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/8216"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/sites.smith.edu\/bdpcblackoutproject\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=2982"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/sites.smith.edu\/bdpcblackoutproject\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2982\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":2984,"href":"https:\/\/sites.smith.edu\/bdpcblackoutproject\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2982\/revisions\/2984"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/sites.smith.edu\/bdpcblackoutproject\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/2981"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/sites.smith.edu\/bdpcblackoutproject\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=2982"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/sites.smith.edu\/bdpcblackoutproject\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=2982"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/sites.smith.edu\/bdpcblackoutproject\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=2982"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}